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# RE: Re: Wanting

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- Subject: RE: [BardonPraxis] Re: Wanting
- From: "Jeudy, Olivier [AUDT]" <olivier.jeudy@...>
- Date: Thu, 12 Feb 2004 12:10:53 +0900
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- Thread-topic: [BardonPraxis] Re: Wanting

    Beautifully said David. And I find some parts of myself in reading your lines!

    Olivier

    -----Original Message-----
    From: David Yeh [mailto:ldreamr@...]
    Sent: Wednesday, February 11, 2004 11:21 AM
    To: BardonPraxis@yahoogroups.com
    Subject: [BardonPraxis] Re: Wanting

    Hi Regulus,

    You bring up an interesting issue that I have been looking at lately,
    and that is the quality of my "wanting." To a large extent, I've
    been finding that a lot of my "wanting" has to do with ego-grasping,
    and that's part of why I've found myself glossing over some
    exercises. It's the part of me that wants to accumulate experiences,
    in the belief that the more I have the better I am; rather than
    experiencing each aspect of life for what it is, and thereby not only
    enjoy life but be fully in the moment and learn the most.

    The most deceptive thing is that I considered myself not very
    materialistic, because I was "spiritual." But it was spiritual
    materialism all the same.

    So lately I have been thinking more in terms of enjoying myself and
    being present. This is a major, major imbalance I see in my soul
    mirror, and actually the root of or related to the majority of the
    items on there. (Did I do that wrong, I wonder? To have one basic
    root for the majority of the negative traits in my soul mirror?) I
    have too much negative Earth and Fire, it sucks me down and burns me
    out and I don't leave anything left for feeling and enjoying and
    being light and humorous with myself.

    On the whole, though, I think the main reason that I would stick with
    this path is precisely because it makes me face my patterns and where
    I am stuck. I don't imagine that the advanced magician is supposed
    to be spiritually "mature" to the point where he can't enjoy life; I
    would think that it would be quite the opposite. But I am realizing
    that maybe the reason these spiritual paths feel so difficult is
    because they require you to give up your attachments and enjoy life
    as it is, even while working hard toward some goal you may never
    attain. Controlled folly, don Juan called it.

    David

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