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# Re: Can't wake up...

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- Subject: Re: [BardonPraxis] Can't wake up...
- From: "Rawn Clark" <rawnclark@...>
- Date: Tue, 5 Oct 2004 12:40:17 -0700
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    Dear Lee,

    >> I have been gradually working through the Step One exercises, and I
    find myself at a stalemate of sorts. I could easily make time for
    meditation/introspection every morning before starting my daily routine.
    However, I find that even with the alarm, I can't seem to get up and get
    it underway. I've read the available materials in this forum, the Magi
    forum, and Rawn's commentaries, and while I find all of it immensely
    helpful, I have progressed no further. I agree that there is a
    blockage, but I can't seem to determine what it is. I've run through
    everything I can think (and not think) of to no avail. Perhaps as I
    progress through the mirror work, I will stumble upon this thing that is
    holding me back. Can anyone provide a personal observation that is
    similar to this? And if so, what type of blockage was it attributed to?
    <<

    For me it had to do with several factors, primary among them was a fear
    of actually transforming myself into the person I knew I could become.
    It felt very "safe" being the "old" Ron and somehow less safe to live as
    the "new" Rawn. For me this manifested as a certain "laziness" in
    regard to arising early to perform the exercises and left me feeling as
    though the exercises were a burden, a drudgery that I began to dread.
    Never before had I been so "tired" in the morning and so unable to
    answer the alarm clock's call! ;-)

    And, like you, at the time I was unable to figure out what the problem
    was. So I decided to stop worrying about the *cause* and work instead
    at a *solution*. What I did was adopt a couple of the Step Two
    techniques and tried my best to change the habit I had developed of not
    getting up in the morning, into a habit of getting up every morning. I
    developed a positive affirmation in order to reprogram my subconscious
    responses and repeated it as Bardon directed, each night as I was
    falling asleep and each morning *right after the alarm went off*. The
    gist of my affirmation was that each morning I awake eager to perform my
    exercises. I also increased my sense of eagerness through meditation
    and, of course, kept up my meditation in which I sought out the root
    cause of my difficulty. I firmly resolved to get myself out of bed when
    the alarm went off!!!

    In less than a week, I was in the habit of actually getting up when the
    alarm went off, full of eagerness and energy for my exercises. It was
    at that point that my commitment to pursuing the work of IIH became
    unshakeable. :) And shortly thereafter I came to understand the
    underlying factors which contributed to my original difficulty.

    My best to you,
    :) Rawn Clark
    05 Oct 2004
    rawnclark@...
    rawn@...
    http://www.ABardonCompanion.com
    http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BardonPraxis
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  - Can't wake up...
    - From: "D. Lee Christopher" <dleechristopher@...>

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